it’s been a while since i’ve written a proper update post here! let’s talk about some stuff i’ve been up to lately. lots of it is good news ✨
Where I’ve been
i came out of the gate swinging in 2022, both restarting my antidepressant (more on that later) and streaming twice within two weeks – it’s been a long time since i’ve pulled that off!
unfortunately, in late february, i got hit with some pretty rough stomach problems. doctors and tests have confirmed it’s nothing serious, but the worst of the issues lasted about three months. i’ve spent most of that time resting and recovering – and while i’m happy to say that i seem to be past the worst of it, i’m still sometimes hit with intermittent cramps and constipation that get in the way of both work and play… the big difference is, now they only knock me out for a day instead of a week!
as of now, i only know what it *isn’t* – it’s not a blockage, bacterial infection, or internal bleeding. but next month i’ll be seeing a gastrointestinal specialist, so we can narrow down what it is, and hopefully do something about it.
in the meantime, with symptoms starting to abate, i’m much more active and busy again! speaking of…
New video tomorrow!
today i’m putting the finishing touches on a new video for my main channel: a highlight reel of my monkey ball streams! if you’ve never made it to my streams, this is a nice bite-sized introduction to my streaming style and sense of humor. i had lots of fun putting it together, and i hope it’s just as fun to watch~
it’s been nearly five years since my last highlights video – five years since i’ve had the energy to think about videos, five years since i’ve streamed anywhere near consistently enough to have highlights, five years of unfulfilled hopes and dreams. so this is a big moment for me!!
the video releases tomorrow at 5pm central time. i would appreciate if you give it a watch 💙
What’s next?
in the midst of my stomach problems i was working on something else: my old Mari0 mappack, Retrush! yes, i’m still working on that old thing. in fact, a demo is nearly done – i just have a little bit of polish left to do! …but i haven’t touched it in two or three months. it’s so close though! i’m gonna work on knocking that out next.
after that, who knows? i would love to keep up the streaming momentum – i still can’t commit to a schedule, but i feel more confident about tackling bigger games now! i’ve had a lot of stream games pile on to the list over the years… it’ll be nice to start clearing through that pile again.
In conclusion
my partner introduced me to the concept of “creative constipation”: ideas and dreams that have been stuck in your system for too long and just need to be released already. pretty much everything i’m working on here has been a dream of mine since college! but for so many reasons over the years, i’ve been struggling to get them out – whether it’s homework, actual work, family issues, or mental health issues.
go figure that the latest reason is actual constipation.
but with that subsiding, and some real support in my life, i’m hoping i can finally – finally! – start fulfilling those dreams. the future is looking bright 💖